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 Preface: My mother is going to kill me.

 

Author: Anonymous

 

Here lately I’ve been getting in arguments with my sistas about their hair.  A few things:

1. I hate when women wrap their hair before bed.  Hence, why I have two silk pillows on my bed, “just in case, they don’t want to get their hair messed up, [messing] with a [brother]” as Katt W. said.
2. I hate when some Black woman asks me what I think of her hair when she chops it off and goes, Happy I’m Nappy natural.  I think the same thing each time, “That was stupid. (In the “That was easy” voice)
3. I hate the argument that Black women have problems working out because they sweat their hair out.  I believe there are plenty of Black women who manage to work out and not sweat their hair out, that’s why they are in shape and others aren’t.

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And then suddenly it hit me, it’s been a while since I talked to a woman with Black hair.  And you know what?  Seriously, just one day I just lost the urge to talk to Black women at all.  I don’t think I’ve ever said, I’m done talking to Black women, I think one day I just said to myself, I’ve had enough I’m no longer limiting myself to a group of women just because they are Black.  And this translated into me just not meeting or interacting with them on a romantic level anymore.

 

This was not spontaneous, it was gradual in nature.  I think back on life and I’ve always had a thing for “redbone” or “high yella” women.  In fact, the Summer of 2003 joke about me used to be that I like them, “light, bright and damn there white” or “oh yeah, lighter than that.”  The last Black girl that I seriously dated was a “redbone” with hazel eyes.  Sooner or later I was bound to just cross on over.

 

I never was the type to date solely in my race, my girlfriend in middle school was white.  Oh and let’s be clear, she wasn’t a white girl from around the way, she was white.  I went to a predominantly white school for college, I was in a predominantly white major, and I hung around a pretty diverse group of people.  Naturally, I had sex with white women.  It was never a big deal for me.  And it wasn’t just white women, because it was Latina sisters too.  Being from DC, once going to NY, I discovered different nationalities of Latinas, such as, Dominicans and Puerto Ricans.  But still, “light, bright, and damn there white.”

 

So after a few bad experiences with Black women in DC after school, I just gave up on being the token Black guy.  Yes, the token Black guy, a guy who is predisposed to only Black women for fear of persecution.  And so I’ve now become a Black man who believes he has a great chance of never dating a Black woman again, unless she’s mixed.

 

I know the readers would like to know why, and I’ll tell you…  I’ve noticed a REAL big difference when in relationships and dealings with white women.

 

I do not have to carry the race with my interactions with white women.  With Black women, you are representing for the whole race and gender of Black men.  You deal with the baggage of every Black girl lost.  And you’re just not trying to hear all that.  I don’t want to deal with how Black men are always cheating and leaving some Black women for a White woman.  I do not need to hear about how some Black man is always skipping out on his responsibilities.  I do not need to hear about how Black women have carried the race for so long, that it’s time that Black men stepped up to the plate.  I don’t need to hear that Black men ain’t sh*t.  Excuse my French.  Quite frankly, I’m not those men, so don’t compare me to them.

 

I’m not finished with this topic.  When I make a mistake, I now get the punishment of a repeat offender.  It’s like if I cheat on a Black woman, because I cheated on a woman, I get punished for every other Black man who cheated and got caught or didn’t get caught.  No, this is the present, I’ve made a mistake, and this may be my first mistake and I need to be able to make mistakes or this won’t go anywhere whatsoever.  Lastly, when she makes a mistake, she can write it off by comparing it to the things that Black men have done in the past.

 

There’s a sense of entitlements that should not exist.  One of the things that caused me to get extremely frustrated with dating Black women was the sense of entitlement to dictating the way everything should go, as if they were owed something.  They didn’t have to earn anything.  When I was dating outside of Black women, that was different.  I’ll give you two examples; Latina women will cook for you, Black women will tell you, “I ain’t your mother.”  White women will chill in the house when you’re broke, Black women will tell you the second you decline going out, “How come we don’t ever go anywhere?!”

 

I know there are exceptions to the rule.  But I’m very adamant about saying, that we are not judged by our inconsistencies, but by our consistencies.  And if the large majority of you are one way, you need to huddle with your people about what the majority voice is before coming to me claiming to be the exception.  I’ve been consistently happier dating white and Latina women than I have been dating Black women.  I actually felt like I could be myself, I wasn’t living up to some norm or standard that I didn’t have any part in creating.  Quite frankly, I haven’t been in a setting where it was predominantly Black since the sixth grade, it only makes sense that I need someone who understands that I’m multi-faceted.  No, I’m not a Black man who doesn’t know he’s Black, I’m a Black man who knows he’s Black enough to not need to see a Black woman everyday to know that he’s Black.  I’m a Black man who’s strong enough to say, as it stands for me, I just don’t think I’m compatible with most Black women. 

 

Am I saying that I will never date a Black woman again?  No, I’m merely saying it’s unlikely.

 

Reader’s Note:  Through out this blog you may have noticed that I capitalize the “B” in Black, but do not do the same for the term white.  I do this because Black is a race in America that represents a group of people who do cannot and do not trace their roots back to anything but Black.  While white is a race, it is a placeholder for many people who can trace their roots back to a nationality but choose to use the term white to distinguish themselves from Black people.

 

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